MY STORY
My name is Stacy Lundgren and this is my testimony
I was born Chico California in a Christian family who loved me very much. When I was around 3 my parents got a divorce. This was very hard for me because my dad was around but he wasn’t my dad was an alcoholic and it consumed him. When I started elementary school I was diagnosed with ADD and Dyslexia. in school I was tormented because of it to the point in Jr. high I tried to kill myself. My dad was in and out of jail and my mom went back to school and school was a nightmare so I turned to the internet guys really didn’t see me at this time that let me to met a man off the internet he was 22 and I was 14 I thought a 22 year old is interested in me I much be cool. He started to show me the attention that I was seeking for. I started a secret relationship with him that no one new about.I knew what I was doing was not good at that age I'm thinking a 22 year old is into me i must be cool. I started to live 2 different lives. Everyone thought I was this good Christian girl this good girl I even had other boyfriends but no one new about this secret life that I was living. He would pick me up at the local school and would drive around. He would ask me how I i was and he would find a hidden spot to stop the car. when ever we got together he never pushed me to do anything i didn't want to.This continued for about a year.In the start of 2001 we started sleeping together also back in my mind at this point I loved him and was the only one I really wanted to be with anyway. my mom remarried to my step dad and we shortly moved from my hometown Chico California to Sacramento and things got a lot worse. He stared having me meet other men off the internet. He never forced me but he knew the right words to say he would tell me I was beautiful and just having fun but fun was far from it. I was constantly sacred wither I was pregnant and I was living this second life. on the outside I was showing I was an ordinary girl but on the inside i was drowning because there was no one I thought I could tell and also I was afraid of loosing him. I formed a love a attachment to him. when ever i went out to see the men he would always want me to call him so he knew i was ok. The first guy I met him at midnight and my heart was pounding i didn't know what to expect. So many things were going through my head. I heard a voice telling me to go back and I knew better. I didn't know it then but I know it was God trying to warn me that things were going to get a lot worse. I didn't listen and sure enough things got really bad. It got to the point I was seeing 2 to 3 guys a week. When turned 18 I was suppose to meet with him but that day never happen. The FBI new everything that was going on for the past 4 month by using wire tap. He was the first person in the United States it was used on they found out that there was suppose to be another man with him and he was going to trade me into trafficking. I know that was God and he saved my life. I was a mess at this point everything I knew was gone. I went to a fall retreat and there was when I gave everything to God. I started getting really involved in my church at Capital Christian Center. I was working in the Sunday school and real involved in my youth group. But I was taking way too much and I Got burnt out. I started spending a lot of time from Chico with my dad. I started to see and old boyfriend, which started a huge roller coaster. In 2006 we got engaged and I moved back to Chico. Not long I was there we broke up and I fell into a deep depression. I started doing stuff I told myself I would never do. I started drinking a lot and I got involved in a bad affair. My pried also got the best of me I didn’t want to go back home and hear all the I told you so. In 2007 I had a miscarriage and I fell into postpartum and started drinking a lot to numb the pain of losing my baby. Not long after my ex fiance and I got back together but it we weren’t together long he cheated on me and we broke us a week later I found out I was pregnant with my daughter Grace who saved my life she was my ticket to go back to Sacramento. I was back in Sacramento and I had to be put on bed rest because the placenta was detached on one side. A couple months later I had a huge bleeding episode that winded me up in the hospital for 2 months they didn’t know what was causing it so they told me I was stuck there till I had Grace. At 36 weeks they endued me that ended up being a c-section. We both came out perfectly fine. Not long after I had Grace my dad died from liver failure from drinking. That was the hardest thing I ever had to do. After my dad died I completely closed up I couldn’t feel anything I was a mess. My mom remembered Mercy ministries which is a 6 month live in counseling program and asked me if I wanted to go. Mercy was the best thing that ever happen to me. I walked into the doors of mercy and I couldn’t feel a thing. But as soon as I started counseling I could little by little see the numbness come off I learned I thought my numbness was from my dad but I learned because I never dealt with what happen to me from when I was a kid consumed my I was so focused to not let it make me into a bitter person and that was what it did. At mercy they have a stage called healing life hurts and in this stage they have you make trees that are connected to roots. You identify each root to each hurt. I chose to do my 2 major ones one first and that other one last. We had a lady come and do prophecies over all the girls plus staff. God told me your going the next day I was thinking ok. I had counseling that day and we were on my last tree. That tree was the man I was involved with and I fought tooth and nail asking if we can do it the following week. My counselor asked why do you want to hang on to this. I realized it was the control that he still had over me and I said ok lets do it. It was so amazing getting the chains off of him. God told me that I was not going to be able to accept anything he had to tell me if I didn’t let this one thing go. Its amazing what we let have so much control over us that it controls everything. Because of mercy I can now feel I can feel the good the bad and my tears are back I did mercy for my daughter I am now able to be the mom she deserves. After mercy I am not living with my mom I still have my struggles but not I have the freedom and the tools to fight off what the devil tried to do he tried to keep me quiet I will never be silent again God gave me a voice and I am going to use it for him and help thought’s who are in this place and spread Gods love to all. I know want to show people they too have the freedom and they don’t have to live in the bondage the chains that keeps them where they are. God did not make them for that. God made them to live in freedom in the land of milk and honey like he promised Moses and the inherent that he gave is ours. But most importantly I want them to know the love that Jesus has and what Jesus did for us all. I want to help these girls who are in this spot on feeling there is no hope. But God promises that through Christ we have hope we have the freedom though him with have the power over Christ.
After a few months of being out of Mercy was so tough. Here I am for the first time with emotions and didn't know how to handle them. I saw myself back to hooking up with guys.I ended up hooking up with a 45 year old man and the satan getting to my head saying "see this is all you are ever going to be" because of this. It brought me so much shame and guilt where it was really hard for me to go back to my college group Epic life. I thought how could I be coming here when I am doing this. coming in June of 2011 I found myself getting mixed up in an affair. This brought me to my lowest point. I ended up braking up with him because I just couldn't do it anymore. In October I started going to school at Capital Bible College for Christian Counseling. Though this class it has helped me so much. The school has a quarterly system and this class has 4 parts to it. I currently am in part 3 but in the first part is all about God and understanding him. Through this we learned about obedience and in just a couple weeks I heard God tell me that I needed to give him EVERYTHING not 99% but everything. that meant any hurt, any shame, any guilt I was feeling. when I said ok God started opening up so much. I started to date a guy who is in the US Army we weren't together long but his mom and I have gotten really close and she has basically adopted me. has been a huge answer to many prayers in this area. In October a friend of mine has a group at Sac-State that they focus on one major crime each semester. The past two they have focused a lot on Human Trafficking and my friend who knew part of my story asked me if I would come to his group and share. little did i know just what God was opening up. This was something I wanted to do for a long time. I kept hearing a the verse appointed for such a time as this Esther 4:14. I didn't know what that meant but after I spoke at this group. God changed the words and told me " I have been preparing you for such a time as now" I was so amazing on realizing that. this started opening up so many more doors. I through a mutual friend met and be came apart of Run For Courage. They are a group that the put on runs to raise money for safe homes for Human Trafficking survivors. They also do many awareness events. They have been using me a lot to tell my story and what God did so hopefully my story will touch and save one girl from having to go through what I did or even worse. I am really seeing that God is restoring a lot of the things that satan took from me. I am currently seeing an amazing man of God and from dating him he has helped me grow so much more into God In trusting. through this time God has been working on molding us into his workmanship and through that is making us stronger into each other. at the beginning of 2012 at epic they gave us back a letter that they had us write at the beginning of 2011 and I honestly didn't know what to put. I was talking to my boyfriend and open the letter and I just started crying and laughing because in it was all the things that happen at the end of 2011 I put that I wanted to be doing something with my life. which I have been through speaking about my story, I also put I wanted to find a potential family. I have so many little families who adopted me last year. Epic life, my spiritual mom and so many others. but last I put to find my husband and that was when I met Casey and I know with out any shadow of a doubt that this is my husband and like learned at Epic we get to choose who we marry and I couldn't of chosen better. In march I went to El Salvador with Epic life for 10 days and it was amazing. God has opened up my heart so much for these people. we for the past 4 years have been working rebuilding this elementary school. We also went to a all girl orphanage and these girls come from all walks of life. On the last day myself and 4 others got baptized in the ocean. I had been baptized before but I really felt like God was telling me I needed too. I finally was able to give God everything that I was still feeling inside me and finally put it to rest. I cam back to America and haven't been the same. I want to keep growing more closer to God and bring as many as i can to Christ but my heart now is to show these girls that they can have a freedom but they cant do it on there own. Jesus died on the cross so we can have freedom from all things I am so glad I'm learning and realizing that my freedom lies in Him.
I was born Chico California in a Christian family who loved me very much. When I was around 3 my parents got a divorce. This was very hard for me because my dad was around but he wasn’t my dad was an alcoholic and it consumed him. When I started elementary school I was diagnosed with ADD and Dyslexia. in school I was tormented because of it to the point in Jr. high I tried to kill myself. My dad was in and out of jail and my mom went back to school and school was a nightmare so I turned to the internet guys really didn’t see me at this time that let me to met a man off the internet he was 22 and I was 14 I thought a 22 year old is interested in me I much be cool. He started to show me the attention that I was seeking for. I started a secret relationship with him that no one new about.I knew what I was doing was not good at that age I'm thinking a 22 year old is into me i must be cool. I started to live 2 different lives. Everyone thought I was this good Christian girl this good girl I even had other boyfriends but no one new about this secret life that I was living. He would pick me up at the local school and would drive around. He would ask me how I i was and he would find a hidden spot to stop the car. when ever we got together he never pushed me to do anything i didn't want to.This continued for about a year.In the start of 2001 we started sleeping together also back in my mind at this point I loved him and was the only one I really wanted to be with anyway. my mom remarried to my step dad and we shortly moved from my hometown Chico California to Sacramento and things got a lot worse. He stared having me meet other men off the internet. He never forced me but he knew the right words to say he would tell me I was beautiful and just having fun but fun was far from it. I was constantly sacred wither I was pregnant and I was living this second life. on the outside I was showing I was an ordinary girl but on the inside i was drowning because there was no one I thought I could tell and also I was afraid of loosing him. I formed a love a attachment to him. when ever i went out to see the men he would always want me to call him so he knew i was ok. The first guy I met him at midnight and my heart was pounding i didn't know what to expect. So many things were going through my head. I heard a voice telling me to go back and I knew better. I didn't know it then but I know it was God trying to warn me that things were going to get a lot worse. I didn't listen and sure enough things got really bad. It got to the point I was seeing 2 to 3 guys a week. When turned 18 I was suppose to meet with him but that day never happen. The FBI new everything that was going on for the past 4 month by using wire tap. He was the first person in the United States it was used on they found out that there was suppose to be another man with him and he was going to trade me into trafficking. I know that was God and he saved my life. I was a mess at this point everything I knew was gone. I went to a fall retreat and there was when I gave everything to God. I started getting really involved in my church at Capital Christian Center. I was working in the Sunday school and real involved in my youth group. But I was taking way too much and I Got burnt out. I started spending a lot of time from Chico with my dad. I started to see and old boyfriend, which started a huge roller coaster. In 2006 we got engaged and I moved back to Chico. Not long I was there we broke up and I fell into a deep depression. I started doing stuff I told myself I would never do. I started drinking a lot and I got involved in a bad affair. My pried also got the best of me I didn’t want to go back home and hear all the I told you so. In 2007 I had a miscarriage and I fell into postpartum and started drinking a lot to numb the pain of losing my baby. Not long after my ex fiance and I got back together but it we weren’t together long he cheated on me and we broke us a week later I found out I was pregnant with my daughter Grace who saved my life she was my ticket to go back to Sacramento. I was back in Sacramento and I had to be put on bed rest because the placenta was detached on one side. A couple months later I had a huge bleeding episode that winded me up in the hospital for 2 months they didn’t know what was causing it so they told me I was stuck there till I had Grace. At 36 weeks they endued me that ended up being a c-section. We both came out perfectly fine. Not long after I had Grace my dad died from liver failure from drinking. That was the hardest thing I ever had to do. After my dad died I completely closed up I couldn’t feel anything I was a mess. My mom remembered Mercy ministries which is a 6 month live in counseling program and asked me if I wanted to go. Mercy was the best thing that ever happen to me. I walked into the doors of mercy and I couldn’t feel a thing. But as soon as I started counseling I could little by little see the numbness come off I learned I thought my numbness was from my dad but I learned because I never dealt with what happen to me from when I was a kid consumed my I was so focused to not let it make me into a bitter person and that was what it did. At mercy they have a stage called healing life hurts and in this stage they have you make trees that are connected to roots. You identify each root to each hurt. I chose to do my 2 major ones one first and that other one last. We had a lady come and do prophecies over all the girls plus staff. God told me your going the next day I was thinking ok. I had counseling that day and we were on my last tree. That tree was the man I was involved with and I fought tooth and nail asking if we can do it the following week. My counselor asked why do you want to hang on to this. I realized it was the control that he still had over me and I said ok lets do it. It was so amazing getting the chains off of him. God told me that I was not going to be able to accept anything he had to tell me if I didn’t let this one thing go. Its amazing what we let have so much control over us that it controls everything. Because of mercy I can now feel I can feel the good the bad and my tears are back I did mercy for my daughter I am now able to be the mom she deserves. After mercy I am not living with my mom I still have my struggles but not I have the freedom and the tools to fight off what the devil tried to do he tried to keep me quiet I will never be silent again God gave me a voice and I am going to use it for him and help thought’s who are in this place and spread Gods love to all. I know want to show people they too have the freedom and they don’t have to live in the bondage the chains that keeps them where they are. God did not make them for that. God made them to live in freedom in the land of milk and honey like he promised Moses and the inherent that he gave is ours. But most importantly I want them to know the love that Jesus has and what Jesus did for us all. I want to help these girls who are in this spot on feeling there is no hope. But God promises that through Christ we have hope we have the freedom though him with have the power over Christ.
After a few months of being out of Mercy was so tough. Here I am for the first time with emotions and didn't know how to handle them. I saw myself back to hooking up with guys.I ended up hooking up with a 45 year old man and the satan getting to my head saying "see this is all you are ever going to be" because of this. It brought me so much shame and guilt where it was really hard for me to go back to my college group Epic life. I thought how could I be coming here when I am doing this. coming in June of 2011 I found myself getting mixed up in an affair. This brought me to my lowest point. I ended up braking up with him because I just couldn't do it anymore. In October I started going to school at Capital Bible College for Christian Counseling. Though this class it has helped me so much. The school has a quarterly system and this class has 4 parts to it. I currently am in part 3 but in the first part is all about God and understanding him. Through this we learned about obedience and in just a couple weeks I heard God tell me that I needed to give him EVERYTHING not 99% but everything. that meant any hurt, any shame, any guilt I was feeling. when I said ok God started opening up so much. I started to date a guy who is in the US Army we weren't together long but his mom and I have gotten really close and she has basically adopted me. has been a huge answer to many prayers in this area. In October a friend of mine has a group at Sac-State that they focus on one major crime each semester. The past two they have focused a lot on Human Trafficking and my friend who knew part of my story asked me if I would come to his group and share. little did i know just what God was opening up. This was something I wanted to do for a long time. I kept hearing a the verse appointed for such a time as this Esther 4:14. I didn't know what that meant but after I spoke at this group. God changed the words and told me " I have been preparing you for such a time as now" I was so amazing on realizing that. this started opening up so many more doors. I through a mutual friend met and be came apart of Run For Courage. They are a group that the put on runs to raise money for safe homes for Human Trafficking survivors. They also do many awareness events. They have been using me a lot to tell my story and what God did so hopefully my story will touch and save one girl from having to go through what I did or even worse. I am really seeing that God is restoring a lot of the things that satan took from me. I am currently seeing an amazing man of God and from dating him he has helped me grow so much more into God In trusting. through this time God has been working on molding us into his workmanship and through that is making us stronger into each other. at the beginning of 2012 at epic they gave us back a letter that they had us write at the beginning of 2011 and I honestly didn't know what to put. I was talking to my boyfriend and open the letter and I just started crying and laughing because in it was all the things that happen at the end of 2011 I put that I wanted to be doing something with my life. which I have been through speaking about my story, I also put I wanted to find a potential family. I have so many little families who adopted me last year. Epic life, my spiritual mom and so many others. but last I put to find my husband and that was when I met Casey and I know with out any shadow of a doubt that this is my husband and like learned at Epic we get to choose who we marry and I couldn't of chosen better. In march I went to El Salvador with Epic life for 10 days and it was amazing. God has opened up my heart so much for these people. we for the past 4 years have been working rebuilding this elementary school. We also went to a all girl orphanage and these girls come from all walks of life. On the last day myself and 4 others got baptized in the ocean. I had been baptized before but I really felt like God was telling me I needed too. I finally was able to give God everything that I was still feeling inside me and finally put it to rest. I cam back to America and haven't been the same. I want to keep growing more closer to God and bring as many as i can to Christ but my heart now is to show these girls that they can have a freedom but they cant do it on there own. Jesus died on the cross so we can have freedom from all things I am so glad I'm learning and realizing that my freedom lies in Him.